Vacation? No you wish!

Sitting at the table at 2am. Praying to God to please help her and asking what she did to deserve this.

Panicking thinking of all of the worst possible things that could go wrong or could happen.

Questioning myself if this will be the last time I'll ever see her.

January 7th 2024…

My parents came to my room and sat me down to have a deep talk.

I looked at my dad and noticed his eyes were red, and were shiny. I could tell he was crying.

If your dad is crying.

You know it's bad… really bad.

I've only seen him cry 1 time in my entire 14 years I've been alive.

My mom starts to tear up a little bit aswell

“Ivy, i know this is gonna be a lot to take in. But it is your choice if you want to come to South Carolina with me and your dad.”

“Why would we haft to go there?” I said in a worried voice

“Aunt K is in the hospital.”

I paused. Confused… trying to comprehend what I just heard.

“What is she in there for!” I yelled quietly

“The doctors don't really know what happened, but she is on a ventilator and she can't breathe on her own at the moment. The doctors are trying everything to help her right now.”

Me and my family packed our bags and rented a nice car to drive all the way to south carolina.

We woke up at 5am and hit the road. I made my spot so comfy in the car.

The drive to south carolina was pretty boring we didnt do much. I really just sat on my phone listening to music or reading my Bible.  Because i love spending time with God, he has helped me in many many different ways.

My parents were driving all day and it was about 2am in the morning and we are only in arkansas, we parked in a nice spot and got some rest for a bit.

Waking up in arkansas was beautiful. I got out of the car and got some fresh air.

I normally dont know how to describe air. But i can definitely describe it this time.

I got out of the car and felt a nice humid breeze, like when you go in front of an A/C on a hot summer day.

The air was humid and I could feel the moisture in my lungs, I could feel the cold air in my lungs.

As I was taking a few steps away from the car my dad got out too, enjoying the morning too.

“It's beautiful like this, I love waking up before the sun reaches over the trees.” My dad said.

I didn't say anything because I was just enjoying the morning.

Me and him walked down the sidewalk looking at the grass. It was all shiny because of the morning dew.

I messaged my brother asking how the house is doing and he sent me a photo of our backyard covered in snow, he said he was cold lol. He was okay though

My mom wakes up and we hit the road again

Arkansas was probably my favorite place we stopped at, we got a nice breakfast at dennys and it was kinda weird that it was springtime there, and dead winter in colorado

We drove for many many more hours and we finally got to the spot I've been waiting for.

Atlanta, Georgia.

We arrived in Atlanta around 8:00 pm and all of the lights were so pretty on the skyscrapers. I've always dreamed of living in the city. I love looking at all of the lights at night.

And then finally… FINALLY we made it to south carolina, got our hotel and went to the hospital to see my aunt.

we are skipping ahead a lot im done yapping

We check in at the front of the hospital and this place is like a maze ive never been in a building

There are 7 floors in the hospital.

When me and my parents finally found a way to her room she was staying at. We were mentally preparing ourselves before we went in and saw her.

Only 2 people were allowed in her room at the same time.

“Are you sure you wanna go in first with your dad Ivy?  You need to realize she is gonna look very rough and not at all how you have seen her.”

I nodded my head and took a big deep breath and walked down the hallway to my aunts room.

My dad opened the door and my heart dropped.   The first thing i thought to myself was…

Why does she look almost identical to me? I get it. I haven't seen her in years, but I never noticed any similarities this much. 

We walk in, she is unable to talk because she can't breathe on her own. We tried to communicate with her the best we could with simple yes or no questions first.

The questions my dad was asking were not really necessary or hard for her to communicate back.

I tried talking to her and she preferred me to talk to her instead of my dad because I could understand her better than him.

I was paying attention to all of the little things my dad wasn't paying attention too,

She kept trying to move around and my dad was telling her to stop because she thought she was in pain when she moved around like that.

“Are you just trying to stretch, like do u feel like you've been on a long car ride for example” I asked.

My aunt nodded her head up and down, happy that I understood her.

As the days continued in SC the more anxiety I was getting because I could wake up to her being.

Gone.

I don't take deaths in the family well at all. Not well at all.

And i didnt want to see my aunt go like that.

Sitting in the hotel room nervous, waiting to go see her again. Got homesick, couldn't sleep, and cried a lot.   Lots and lots of that.

Sitting there at the table at 2am I was just thinking. And then I started to pray to \God. I was praying that he could heal my aunt  and please do everything he can to help her, just saying them words over and over and over again.

And the next morning… The doctors said she has been taken off life support and was moved to a recovery room and the bleeding in her lungs stopped.

God really helped me that night, and I give my thanks to him.